Friday, May 22, 2015


Decided to do an update as I get seated at one of my favorite spot.

An official two weeks since the start of internship. I don't deny feeling a little defeated on the first day during orientation when I face (say what) ~80% of them coming from the same school, and course. I had questions as mild as 'why pursue __ in this company?' to something as directly and crude as asking me what am I even doing here (if I'm not doing accounts) I remember feeling a little demotivated since I was accustomed to sales and fast-paced job until today - I encounter the deadly 'OT' every intern dreads.

Today something hits me - if I should continue heading this path.
Risk averse or Risk seeking? I hope I enlighten myself soon.

Sorry, I'm still trying the right way to phrase what I'm about to write. Maybe I shouldn't start on this very controversial topic.

Oh wells, summary because I'm about to head out;
3 things I've been grateful for in these 2 weeks:
1. I'm doing what I love
2. Friends in the same level (thou not the same department, at least I have more lunch buddies now!)
3. Managed to have lunch with Wen, and my ever entertaining (trying very hard to refrain myself from using the word 'gay') friends G & P.

I need to stop letting ego take the better of me - I REALLY need to stop behaving the opposite of how I'm actually feeling. But. But. I'm still afraid. NTS: Stop being so misleading.
For years I've been telling myself not to do 'this' but why why why.
Chances? High.

They are a sign that we are thought of. Cared for. Adored, by someone who may not be immediately present. They are a reminder – one we perhaps should not need but sometimes do – that we are appreciated in our entireties.

"We can learn, again"


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