Waited almost 2 years for someone who never belonged to me because of an impactful sentence he last said during the breakup that happened Nov 2014: maybe, just maybe, we will meet again in the parallel universe, and in there we will be happy.

And finally I got him; we still struggled. I denied the fact we were never meant to be and fought hard until I couldn't find any more reason to hold on.

In this one month I cried hard. Reflected hard. Avoided hard. Vented hard. Loved hard.

In this one month I fell sick for a week but you stopped asking after 2 days.
In this one month I struggled at work with office politics and expectations.
In this one month I made the biggest physical change (sadly & fortunately not weight)
In this one month I stared most at your last seen and status in hope to feel better of this harsh decision I've made.
In this one month I shut down my phone at night when I missed us.
In this one month I seek for a closure and an answer behind her action.


I took the courage to drop by your house at midnight after a month, for the very last time. Your lights weren't on.

Letting go has always been simple, but never easy especially for one who hates living with uncertainty and unfamiliarity.

But I'm glad to say I have reached the last stage of moving on: Renewed.


Renewed: the world is brighter, happier, lighter. That huge weight of pain and fear has been lifted and all you feel is excitement. Excitement for whats to come, excitement for the possibilities. 


Thank you, Sandy Retarded Koh, Aaron Grumpy Sia, Nana Tan, Jiewen Neo, 红红的爸爸, Alamak Ng & Mommy Ong for your selfless acts in this period. 

Yvonne 终于从心里面笑了. 


Love you beef cube & 金金